That was fast! My last post was in 2019 and I was doing more bicycle riding than I've done in the last two years. The first thing that happened starting 2020 was the beginning of the COVID-19 pandemic. I was able to keep riding a little but by the time I get home, I'm more into relaxing by the TV. Somehow we started thinking of getting a house. We found a good Real Estate agent that helped a lot and was patient enough to get what Lucia wanted. It was a good choice in Pittsburg in a gated community. We moved around July and I was able to move little by little. Making it easy to accommodate my many things. Unfortunately, the plan to have space for ALL MY BIKES didn't pan out. The garage where I have been parking my motorcycles will be transformed into a room for Lucia's son which will leave a room to rent to help us with the mortgage payments.
I didn't ride my bicycles that much last year or this year (last year due to COVID-19 and this year due to the move) and they are now starting to need more attention as things are getting dry and not working as well as before when I was riding and maintaining them more often. My newest Road Bike needs to be fine tuned for gear changes. I thought I still remembered some of my bike maintenance lessons I got a few years back but I didn't. I made matter worse and now I'll have to pay for the tuning.
It is almost Xmass and I will gift everybody home to an Alexa sound system and smart speakers. One for each room in the house, even for the garage! My motorcycle riding is daily but since we moved to the new house I also drive my car every day since Lucia is still managing the other house tenants and will keep the house for a while before giving it up. Weekend rides were not a thing this year since we had much to do about the house and staying too busy to ride.
My son, started showing signs of his chronic Depression again when his GF broke their relation earlier this year. Now it is hard to get together as he is always depressed and when we get together I have to listen to a series of negative and angry comments about everything that goes in his life. He has even talked about just letting go since nobody cares anymore. I tried to help him but he just got upset and pushed me away. Only to later complain that I don't know what is going on in his life because I didn't communicated with him for a few weeks (didn't he tell me that he needed his space?!) So, bad if I do, worse if I don't) I have no idea how to fix that and I'm afraid we are just going to go our separate ways. Regardless of what I do he resents any action if it is not what he wants or expects. I don't know what to do or how to do it.
For many years I tried to end things with Lucia as her jelousy and mental instability gets bad during certain times of the month to the point that she gets suspicious even when I get up at night to go to the bathroom!! She starts fights out of nowhere. I'm so fed up that even when she is not starting a fight I'm already in defense mode and get angry at her for her crazy actions and accusations. Despite all that we moved in together and later she convinced me to get the house. I told her from the beginning that I couldn't afford owning a house but she, somehow, convinced me that we would be able to do it. Now, we get into fights over money needed for the "projects" she has and I remind her that the main reason I didn't want to get a house was that I couldn't afford it. Yet, she still gets me to spend my savings "investing" in the house. I can't brake it because when she is okay she is nice and we have fun together but when she goes crazy, I hate her dearly. Well, this is enough complaining for one afternoon. I will continue later. Time to go home.
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